Am I worthy?

“And they speak of how you are looking forward to the coming of God’s Son from heaven—Jesus, whom God raised from the dead. He is the one who has rescued us from the terrors of the coming judgment.”

‭‭1 Thessalonians’s 1:10NLT

“You yourselves are our witnesses—and so is God—that we were devout and honest and faultless toward all of you believers. And you know that we treated each of you as a father treats his own children. We pleaded with you, encouraged you, and urged you to live your lives in a way that God would consider worthy. For he called you to share in his Kingdom and glory. Therefore, we never stop thanking God that when you received his message from us, you didn’t think of our words as mere human ideas. You accepted what we said as the very word of God—which, of course, it is. And this word continues to work in you who believe. And then, dear brothers and sisters, you suffered persecution from your own countrymen. In this way, you imitated the believers in God’s churches in Judea who, because of their belief in Christ Jesus, suffered from their own people, the Jews.”

‭‭1 Thessalonians‬ ‭2:10-14‬ ‭NLT‬‬

2020 is coming to an end. I would be lying if I didn’t say on top of the Covid-19, it wasn’t a great year. Deaths, friendships cut off, illness..it had its moments. But as I was reading this morning, I read something I’ve read again and again, but this time it’s like the combination of a cup of coffee and the Holy Spirit brought this excitement over me! So I couldn’t help but share that with you this morning. I was in 1 Thessalonians, the first 2 chapters. And as I got to chapter 1 verse 10, something ignited. The verse is above, but after picking it apart, and studying it, I read it as: 

Turn to God.

Serve God. 

Look forward to the return of Jesus!!

Turn from sin. 

Be fervent as you serve. 

And be prepared!

And then if you skip over to chapter 2, verse 11-14(also above), you see where Pail is talking about a fathers love. Most, if not all fathers, would never ever neglect the safety of their children. A father would not allow their child to walk into something harmful or even fatal. So in a similar way, as Christians, we should be taking on new believers, until they are mature enough to stand firm in their faith. That’s why I love so much that our church is so passionate in our mentoring programs. This is why!! Part of Discipling is helping newer Christians become stronger in the faith so that they can go out and share the Good News as well. 

Paul is encouraging the Thessalonians to live in a way God considered worthy. Read that again, and then take a deep breath. Worthy. 

And I have to think.. what in my daily life would be an embarrassment to God? Is there anything? What about or this? What do people think of God from watching me? From watching you? Take another deep breath if you need one. :)

This is why it’s important for me to be in the Word daily, and I’m not always. Gods Word isnt just words, or a document. It is a VERY REAL source of transforming power! The Bible is full of this amazing REAL and LIVING power! Read it. Study it. Share it. Encourage new believers to read it. I mean while you’re at it, you can encourage non-Christians to read it. Because, if you’re really seeking truth, and if you’re really yearning to learn, there’s a very good chance that you will be transformed, and touched by this living power. And there’s an even better chance that you’ll never be the same. :) 

At the same time, taking a stand for Christ doesn’t come easy.. usually. Instead, it can come with opposition, disapproval, ridicule, and that’s from the people you’re close to. That’s why part of building this foundation of faith, is standing firm.

For me, being a Christian is an everyday battle. There’s always a battle in my mind between the Wordly way and the way that models a life after Jesus. Its not easy but it’s so amazing and rewarding when we choose to follow Jesus every single day. 

I’ll wrap this up and say.. Christianity isn’t perfection. But having a community of believers, and people who keep you accountable is so important. I’m not perfect, and I’m never going to be. But I rest assured that God will be my strength, my hope, my peace, my joy, and my life. And I am taking that with me into 2021. 

Finding my Rhythm

 The past month I have taken a break from social media, with the exception of utilizing Facebook for work, and that is where the girls' videos are shared for their virtual learning, and one of my bible studies. What's been so amazing though is that through the month I've had the discipline to get on for those things, check my notifications, and get off. No scrolling. If I did catch myself starting to, I'd get off right away. It gets a hold of you quick!! I decided to do this 'digital detox' for 30 days, and I've chosen to come back to Facebook a bit, but I've chosen to stay off Instagram, and other social media for 90 days.. although I'm kind of enjoying not being on them. Ha! God really has showed me that I was becoming someone that would get on my phone, and just scroll, or post a ton of stories, and content. While, thats not a terrible thing, it WAS becoming a terrible thing for me. Not that I was comparing myself to others, but I was just sitting there scrolling..for hours! You cannot invest in those around you, if you're too busy scrolling. Let me say thing again.. you cannot invest in your friends, your family, your children, your community, the stranger needing to hear your voice, when you are busy scrolling, or focusing on YOUR content.

 

Part of this 90 day journey has been coming back into rhythm. Practicing rest(not the sleeping kind), restoration, connecting and creating. It comes from a very wise author that I so relate with, Rebekah Lyons. I have been able to sit down every morning and journal out what kind of rhythms I'm going to practice that day, and at the end of the day, sit down and journal what things I'm grateful for. The effect this has had so far on me, is I've made it a point, every single day, to come to God. To say thank you God. To praise the one who created me, who gives me rest, restores my soul, and putting people in my life to connect with on a little bit deeper level.

 

I've been on a RIDE the last few years. I look back to 2018 and I was dealing with Postpartum Anxiety, panic attacks, fear filled days, and in a situation where I learned my opinion or voice didnt matter, and I started going through a bit of depression, crying every single day, and not being able to fully express how I felt, or what was going on, because well one, I wasn't allowed to in one situation, but also because if you tell someone you have anxiety, or even worse, you're having panic attacks, you would be surprised how many people will tell you to get over it, or just dont accept that kind of thing. It was hard, it was dark, and it wasn't fun. I was yelling when I didnt want to, offended more easily, and hurt more often, it seemed. If you've ever truly lived through anxiety, where you dont want to leave the house, then you know. As embarrassing as it is, I had mornings, where I would be in tears having to leave the house. All this was in the year my mom was diagnosed with ALS. We are coming up on a year from when she left this earth, and its been rough. Holidays are tough.

However, after typing that paragraph, it now blows my mind that I even went through that time. I also want to say, that through all that, my husband was by my side, at all times, and I had people in my life that were praying over me and speaking life in to my life, and I will forever be grateful for that. What I can tell you is today, I am still healing, and I still have my moments, but I am so thankful for where God has brought me and this journey I've been on. I have the most amazing, supportive co workers, friends and family. Having this last month to really go into a time every day of reflection, journaling, reading scripture, and praying has then the most amazing thing. You'll find joy, and peace in the midst of it too. If you want to see healing, come into the presence of God every single day. Get off social media completely for a month and realize that if you really want to know how someones doing, then you'll think of them and send them a text, or call them. It is so much better to connect with someone that way than to leave a like or comment. Invest in the people around you. Loneliness is at an all time high, and someone needs to see your message, or hear your voice.

I also want to say a book I've been reading through all this is Rhythms or Renewal, by Rebekah Lyons. I HIGHLY recommend this book!! My goal is do do a fun digital detox in this next year, where I detox from my phone, from everything but text, calls, and email if you have to, and I ask if you want to join me in this let me know! Also, I'm wanting to move my blog off of here and have no idea how to, so if you have any tips on that, let me know :) 

I pray that you all would have an amazing holiday season, a Happy Thanksgiving and a Merry Christmas! 

 

 

 

 

 

It's all in your head

"It's all in your head"

That's what they told me that night in the ER. "Its all in your head. Your family has some much bad health history that you feel one thing and think the worst." Maybe that's true. Maybe I do worry that my mom had her first heart attack at 33, and I'm sitting here at 31. Maybe I do worry that my whole body feels like pins and needles out of NOWHERE, and I have a roaring headache, while my arm is in pain. Do I panic? I do. Is this something I'm working on? Yes. But not without testing. Lots..of.. tests...

I wasn't happy with walking out of the ER with a script for Xanax, and told the only thing that's wrong with me is I have anxiety. Its all in my head. The panic attacks, the migraines, the constant need for sleep.. That's the new normal, because I have anxiety? I can't accept that. But it's reality. The real reality is how I handle it. Do I let Satan come in and have his way?! ABSOLUTELY NOT! Do I cry out "IN JESUS' NAME!" when I'm in a panic attack because I'm not letting Satan win?! ABSOLUTELY! 

I don't want to talk about this, and I didn't intend to. But there's power in testimony. There's power in letting God take control of your life, and your body. Anxiety is something new to me.. OR.. after talking with a friend, its something that I've probably struggled with for awhile, and I just didn't know it. So as I sit here typing this blog, and it's been AWHILE since I've blogged, I am willing to just another part of my messy story.

After a CT scan from one dr, an MRI from another, a diabetic screening test, and a lipid panel from yet..another. This is what came back. You're nowhere near diabetic, but take you can take a baby asprin once a day, and find a counselor. Your CT scan was perfect, how about I send a script for Lexapro over to your pharmacy, and you should find a counselor. (didnt fill the script)  Other dr.. "Your MRI was unremarkable, I think Zoloft would help, but I would also say get a counselor" Guess what?! I gave in and tried Zoloft. It increased panic attacks and left me sicker than a dog. So I said ok! Enough! If its postpartum anxiety(which one dr said) then it WILL pass! Until then, I chose to see my OBGYN, since that's more their field. And again, another blood test. Full metabolic panel, vitamin d, thyroid, and vitamin b12. And guess what?! I am dealing with some postpartum anxiety but I also have a HUGE vitamin d deficiency! Which apparently, can cause a whole array of issues. Ever since I started taking 50000iu of vitamin d once a week(will do this for 8 weeks), and a magnesium vitamin at night, as well as using some oils, tingling has for the MOST part, gone away! I still have panic attacks, but I can feel them coming now, and can try to talk myself through it. Yes, through it, not out of it. Not only that, but I have a HUGE support system! Some that have gone though panic attacks, and some who haven't, but have remained by my side. I am ever so thankful that I have an amazing husband who has not only learned to not to listen to me when I tell him to take me to the hospital, but to hold my hand and talk through it with me, and tell me I'm ok, but most importantly, to pray for me.

Listen, this isn't a blog to say, look what I'm going through. This is to say, here is my testimony, and I want to help someone else going through this! Because the majority of panic attacks have happened while I've been driving, I dont always like driving. I get anxious grocery shopping, so I use ClickList, and I pray my drive to work as I diffuse Cheer in my car diffuser that I dont havent a panic attack at work, or let anxiety affect my work day. I have to have enough confidence, and strength to go up and sing in the choir, because THAT gives me anxiety!(hmm, funny that when I'm worshiping the Lord, I feel like I'm under attack.)  And above else, I hold on TIGHT to the fact that Jesus Christ will rescue me when I call out his name.That HE gives me that strength! When I first started having the panic attacks a few months ago, I was convinced that my faith wasnt strong enough, and I wasnt spending enough time in the word. That my relationship with God was lacking. That's NOT the case! I'm thankful that even when I'm feeling super anxious and in tears that God rescues me, and gives me my breath back.

I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have Gods hand on me. How I would get through the points where I can't breathe, and my head is going to explode. When I'm driving down the road with both girls in the car, and it comes over me. But every time, he has supplied the right people to be there at the right time. Or my husband who answers his phone while hes at work and has to hear the first thing I say be "Talk me through this babe!"

Through it all, my eyes have stayed on God, and I've heard him say "It is well". 

If you're still with me, thank you, and know that if you're someone that struggles with this, I'm hear to talk!


"Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you" - 1 Peter 5:7

.Unplugged.

 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” -Matthew 11: 28-30

*Ring ring*

*Ding*

*Bing*

*Buzzzzz*

It seems like in this day and age, that's the noise in our busy lives. Where it used to be chatter, on going conversations in the middle of the aisle at the grocery store, it seems to of turned to those above sounds, and rush. Its turned family nights into couch potato nights where all sit around and scroll through the current events of the day. I admit it, I'm guilty. Not only does it lead to isolation, and comparison. Yes, that's right. Comparison. The thief of joy. However, if you want to see a topic on that, it's in a previous blog. It also leads to, anxiety, restlessness, worry, anger, and i could go on and on. You name it, it's there. Its an addiction in so many lives today. If you don't think you are addicted to that little device in your hand, you probably are. 

When we let the addiction of technology take over, there are so many things that it could lead to. We do compare ourselves, to not only those on our friends list, but those who are plastered all over the news. Which turns into worrying about the amount of likes we have on a certain post, or picture, or why isn't so and so responding when I SAW that it was "read", or "opened." You see where this is heading? We then begin to have self-esteem issues, because we cant measure up to someone or something, that doesn't or shouldn't define..us..

...that's right. Most of the things that you are trying to measure up to don't..define..you.

Yet, we let it. We let that negative comment define us. We allow that person to come into our lives and tell us who we are going to measure up to define us. We let that significant other who tells us we aren't good enough define us. We let a picture that doesn't get 200 likes define us. But, why?! To make us feel better? To make us look better. 

Here's the thing:: If you are striving to be like someone else here on this earth, or vicariously live life through someone else, you won't be better. In the end, that will lead to a very unhappy, unsuccessful person. So grab onto something deeper, something worth defining you! 

In Matthew 11, God is telling us to come to him all who are weary and heavy burdened. Not those who are perfect. When the noise of comparison, the need to know whats going on in someone's life, the want/need to be someone who you're not starts to wear you down, tear you down, and leave you downright exhausted, God says "come to me." You see, he provides an everlasting truth that he is there, not to harm you, not to call you inadequate, and not to ask you to measure up to something that isn't good. He says, "come to me, I love you, as I always have." He wants us to take away the noise of rejection, and self-hate, low self- esteem, and he wants to show us how much he loves us! It comes with a price though. 

God wants us to come to Him, but that's just it. We have to come to Him. We have to take up the cross, and run into His arms. Having a relationship with God should be more than the earthly relationships we have. Non-distracted and open. That means putting down your device, and opening up your bible, or sitting down to pray. That's communication with God! It isn't just the worship or the Sunday mornings. Its about the relationship! So with that being said, I am taking some of my own steps, and practicing what I preach. I will be honest, and most know that I do let my device override me life sometimes. From my relationship with God, to my very own family time. That's not to say we should never be on our phones, but there's definitely a time and a place. 

.Unplugged. 

Starting in April, I will be unplugging. I will be taking away social media, on all platforms, for a time being. I am doing this, in order to spend more time with my family, and with God. And point blank, not putting everything we do out there. I am choosing to rest. So this is a challenge that I am taking on. Anyone willing to join? :) 

Create in me a new heart

As I sit here with my daughter, I cannot fathom that she will be turning one in 2 very short days. Where has this year gone?! Then I sit back and just think about what 2015 brought. The challenges, new adjustments, new beginnings, beauty, frustration.. But it just seemed like yesterday that I was in the hospital, preparing for a natural birth. Yes, that was the plan. 36 hours later, an epidural, over and hour of pushing, and ending in a c section, arrived our beautiful baby girl--not boy like they told us. Haha! And where I got through 13 hours naturally--it didn't end that way—and that's okay. Did I feel like I failed my body? Yes. Did I believe that I got a DVT(blood clot) in my leg because of those choices? Yes. What came out of it tho is pure beauty. A beauty that changed mine and my husbands life. A beauty only God could of created. She has taken us for a ride, for sure! But I've enjoyed every bit of it. She knows how to make mommy worry.. there are many things Jarod kept between us, God and close family or friends. We were thankful that an abnormal newborn screen was negative for CF, but cried watching Hannah go through a sweat test at the Children's Hospital. I cried when I took Hannah in for that I thought was an ear infection from the "what to look for's", was actually a nutrition issue. That she weighed more at 2 months, than she did at 5 months, so I had to take her to the dr every week for weight checks for 6 weeks. Only to learn that she was not dehydrated but lacking calories. It was hard to hear that I could no longer just nurse her, but that I would have to supplement, and eventually no longer nurse by time she was 7 months. 

I refused to believe the diagnosis on the paper that said "failure to thrive". She is no where near that diagnosis anymore.

If I had to ever want something more to begin my 2015 year, it was just that. So to go in to the new year, I can't wait to see what 2016 brings. 

But what I can say that I want to bring is new beginnings that are for me. The bible says in Ephesians, that we are to throw off our old self, and live a new life in Christ Jesus. What would it look like to start the new year off, living a new life in Christ Jesus? To let him into your life, and call him your savior?? 

Recently, I've joined back with my college friends and started a bible study. I am so excited for this, as they are so incredibly amazing, and to have a group of ladies to talk about life and Jesus, over a cup of coffee is perfection. So divinely put together. 

What I've fallen short of, is spending time with God. I want more than anything for God to be my first priority of the day. However, I've gotten lost in the world of a device. Not only does this take away from God, but so much it takes away from my family. So what I've chosen to do, as a new beginning of 2016, is to take a social media hiatus. Will I be on every now and then? Yes. But I choose to blog and that's how I will choose to stay updated. You may keep up with my family on Instagram, and via my email, or telephone. Social media has taken too much of my attention and while it has amazing intentions and purposes, I am taking those for granted. So as the new year begins, you will see less of me, but I pray you see more of Him. 

All that I have, I can find in you.

"God is able to make every grace overflow to you, so that in every way, always having everything you need, you may excel in every good work" 2nd Corinthians 9:8

I used to live in a season of life, where no matter what, I was always looking for more. More money, more friends, more to life in general. I was never happy, or in a time of contentment. I could never "live in the moment", because I was always searching for what was next. Now looking forward to what's to come isn't bad. Its wishing you had more. What happens when we get out of a contentment, we start comparing. "They have this, and they just got what?!" is comparison. One of my favorite quotes say:

Comparison is the thief of joy.

It robs us of that opportunity to live in the moment we are in, with what God is currently supplying us with. Look, there will always be something bigger, something better, and something MORE. Sometimes though, what we have, and where we are is the bigger, better and MORE! We just don't recognize it because we are searching beyond that. Sometimes what we want, isn't quite what God has lined up yet. Yet, we still strive for these things. If you can't be content with what God has for you in the here and now, then you are showing that you can't appreciate what he is giving you. It's ok to see what God has in store for you, and to pray about those things! But if we are putting ourselves in a position where we are forcing things upon ourselves in hiding, then it is probably something we shouldn't' be doing. I could probably write a book on my own testimony for that. I remember when I was in college and living in my apartment, I would constantly be spending money. I'll tell you what, I was the queen of overdrafting my bank account, and maxing out credit cards. My mom would always tell me, "that's not free money you know! You're spending money that's not yours!" Who listens to their parents though really. :P Love you mom! I was spending way beyond my means for what I wanted, not necessarily what I needed. I had a decent control over my money, but I had little control over my shopping. One of my problems around Christmas, was that I loved to buy for people. I would spend some major money on my family! Thank you Amazon for your free shipping at Christmas. But it became a struggle, because at the end of the season, I had no money. I felt good about getting my family gifts, but I also knew I had a bit of a problem. If there's one thing that has helped me control my money, and helped me out with that, it's my husband. Seriously, he walked in on a broke, highly in debt woman. He got me under control though and settled me out good. I could tell you more stories, but then my book might be titled, "The irresponsible woman of debt." :P I can tell you these stories though, because I have overcome those things! Not that I don't buy Christmas presents anymore, I just don't go overboard. That's what life is though. Here's the awesome thing though. We don't need all those presents and fancy things, because God gives us enough!! MORE than enough!! He supplies all of our needs! So dont just focus on the wants. He will supply them in due time. 

"Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full--pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amound you get back." Luke 6:38 

This is by far one of my favorite verses on giving! When you really get into this verse, you have to picture it. I think about when I'm baking. When you have your measuring cup, and you press it down, shake it together, press it down more and make it perfectly level. But, this is saying, running over pouring into your lap! Overflowing!! In this verse in Luke, it's saying that your amount you give will determine the amount you get back. To me, this isn't just about filling the bucket on Sunday morning, but what you are doing. If you are rude to the cashier at the grocery store, don't expect to get much back from your neighbor! If you volunteer to trip hedges, and rake but only do half of the hedges, and not rake, then don't expect it back in return. God is putting it all in, giving us ALL we need; overflowing, so why cant we give him ALL of us?? He doesn't call us to be stingy, he calls us to be generous. I want to be able to pour out everything God is putting inside of me. If I keep it all to myself, there will never be room for anything else. Now that's not to say you should put yourself all out there, there is a time for privacy. I know that giving God my all is something I need some serious work on. I can't tell you I wake up in the morning, and say I'm all yours God! Should I? Yes! We should daily give ourselves to Christ! Its that easy!!

Just a thought....

What if we woke up everyday, and the first thing we did before we even sit up, or roll out of bed if that's your things, is ask God, "have your way with me today." What if we started first thing giving our day to God. Our time, our love and our talents. Well, and if you have problems with your money like I used to, give him that too. He wants ALL of you! Think about all you could pour out throughout the day to others, when we give it away. The thing is, once we give ourselves away, we have an amazing opportunity to put others first. 

"Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name.

Your Kingdom come, your will be done

on earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts,

as we also have forgiven our debtors.

And lead us not into temptaion, but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory forever.

Amen.

Excuse Me.

"I Desire to do your will, my God; Your law is within my heart."

Psalm 40:8

        "Hang on I'm busy." "Just a second, I'm doing something right now." "I'll get around to it eventually." "I can't, I dont have time." "I'll get a hold of you soon." 

Excuses. That's what those are. If I could count how many times I said these to people, it would be way above a reasonable number. My other favorite, "I'll say a prayer for you." How many times have you said that to someone, and never prayed for them. So now, I try my best to pray in the moment. There is no excuse, like, "I'm busy", for prayer. None. The best thing about communication with God, is you can do it out loud, in a group, or just, silently to yourself. There is never an excuse for not having time to pray over your children, either. This is something that I need to make happen. So why do we find these excuses? Why do we fill our lives with busyness, and always put ourselves in a go, go, go mode? It is simply that way this world has trained us. So lets stop letting the world train us, and let the spirit of God Almighty run this course with us. Easier said that done, eh? I have set this vision, to start practicing this. I have let the world and society get a hold of me. This phone consumed, always on the move society. God gives us the ability to REST. I'm not talking about, going to lay down for a nap for an hour. What I'm talking about is sitting down, spending time in prayer, and just listening. Omitting the noise from our lives for even a moment. To REFRESH ourselves. Because if we never take that TIME, how will we ever know, what his will is for our lives?

Desire: noun: a longing or craving.

Just seeing that definition makes me take a deep breath in, close my eyes, and exhale slowly. When I see the word desire, it captivates me. I DESIRE God's unconditional love. I want to spend all of my days running after his heart! So when the scripture says, "I desire to do your will, my God, Your law is within my heart", it captivates me! I have a longing and a craving to do God's will!! How am I able to though, when I'm "too busy"?! Here's the thing. If you know me, and follow me on facebook, its clearly evident that I spend too much time on social media. You might even say I post too many pictures too. Get used to it. Just recently, I deleted my twitter. One key to getting rid of the busyness, is filtering out the junk. I get it, Twitter is great for those who are into marketing, and what not, I've even been told it's a great tool to get my blog out there. however, I don't feel that I need it. Then again, I've been told wordpress is the way to go if you want to blog too. Eh. I'm not saying you have to go, and delete the social media outlet you spend too much time on, but one thing for me even, is learning self control. What is hindering you from getting close to God though? This is an easy but HARD prayer! If you ask God to reveal this to you, He will!!!! So when I say it's hard, it's the getting yourself to ask Him! Here's a hint: if you make it about you, get rid of it. In other words, we theres no room for selfishness when you have a relationship with God. There is, indeed, plenty of room for selflessness though! 

"Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the DESIRES of your heart!"

Psalm 37:4

Read that like this, if we take delight in the Lord, meaning if we please the Lord, he will give us what we crave and long, in Jesus' name!! We have to pursue him, run after him, and let him be a part of our lives! It is not by deeds alone, that he will give us the desires of our hearts! He gave his LIFE for us. So that we can live! We have the opportunity to forgive, repent, move forward!

So tell me this.. why do we fill our lives so full, that we can't take the time to sit down with God and ask, what is your will for my life? Why is it that the first thing I look at when I get up, and the last thing I look at before going to bed is my iPhone? How much more time could I give my husband, my daughter, and my God? If you saw my last post, you would've seen that there have been a lot of changes in the last year. Some of those changes it was hard not to just say "what now God??" But if you press on, and trust that He is holding your life in his hands, you know that things are being worked out for GOOD. IF you are trusting Him, and pleasing Him. :)

So next time you say, "Not right now", ask yourself, why not? Next time you extend a prayer out to someone, do it at that moment. Next time you get asked for coffee, and you're "too busy" because you just don't want to, think about a life you can invest into. If someone forgives you, receive it. If you had a bad day, and you wronged someone, offer forgiveness. The beauty to forgiveness, is it can come with restoration. Don't make it so you're always in a hurry! You could miss out on something amazing. <3